perfect actress ever

i smile like nothing is wrong

talk like everything is perfect

pretend that i am really strong

act like such a happy person

when i may not feel that way

just have troubles of my own

am i not the

most perfect actress ever?

feeling out of energy

not sure if it is today

or this period

as though like

a train running with full steam ahead

with no more fuel left

i do not think that love in order to be genuine

has to be extraordinary

i just need to love without getting tired

just want to be okay today

hopefully

guess that reality depresses me

sometimes

need to find fantasy worlds

and escape in them

i call that detaching from the real world